Still Lost
Still. Yup, still. I thought I had losen and deal with the feeling, the connectivity, and the other things that crashed on. I just realize that it's only on the surface. And I do never know if I still got this fu**ing-freaking-feeling inside my heart. Here I go again, thinking and trying to see the conjunction and the connectivity of a dot to another dot while I actually know that there is no such things, for real. It's just like, you see a dead-end, but, instead of trying to look for another way, you stay, and search for a crack on a wall and make a hole from it. Once when I found the way, the obstacles block it. I keep walking, but using another way to the same direction. No. No turn around this time. I had erase all the U-Turn and make everything a one-way street, so I won't get lost. But I still lost. And in this period of time. I still want to feel it. Just to keep it with the flow. And when the time is enough, I will keep walking, to the exit. And leave you behind....